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noone but me from URL @ 2:03 AM GOOD MORNING! A new morning is always a good thing, for you know that you've lived through yet another day. Don't take it for granted, aye. Happy Birthday Sgt Achala! :D Finally after 4 days of zonking off on the couch, im up till late doing my work, & yes it feels good. I never thought i'd ever, ever say this, but yeahhh i wish the world was made of maths. After uh, approx 10 years of education, i finally can partake in the joys of maths. Its so much easier, funner, fulfilling to do, than say Physics or Chemistry. Ew :/ Anyway, prelim results are out & i gotta work on the above mentioned Sciences + my Lit. Here i want to sing, "We're all in this togetherrrrr!" Well, there's approx uhh, 22 days to the Os. *this would be the cue to scream but i wont. Cos im cool.* So, yeah. STUDYHARD STUDYSMART SEC 4s! & gooood luck to all those doing their EYEs too, all zee way Yo! :D & to anyone else taking whatsoever papers (: Today i studied at PP macs with Nurin & Rupini. Was quite productive & Rupini & i stayed till 8 sthsth! Nurin drew a one haired-mole on the chair, Rupini asked some dude for a balloon cos she liked him (HAHA) & i was the good kid quietly studying (HAHA!). School has been alright, but the pressure's mounting with everyone barking at us that there's no time. Stooopid. Like as though we dont know that for ourselves liddat. Mdm Haslinda always goes, "Girls! What are ya'll doing? Don't you know that when this minute is gone it'll never come back?" I felt like yelling back at her in that calmcoolactpro-voice, that when Kathleen invents the time machine, (OI! HURRY!) i can get that minute back. (HA.HA!) & with the mounting pressure, there's that mounting homework load too. But its okay la huh; cos for the Os, the marks will mount too (: & when alllll the mounting's reached its peak, it'll drop allllll the way down for our Awesome to-be Os L1r5s. (: i feel like singing, "WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHERRRRR" again! hahaha! Okay, so yeah. In conclusion, we can do this. THE BIGFATOs is ours to eat. MUAHAHAHEHEHOHO! & yeah. Im feeling prettty gay right now. hahaha. Anyway, If you're still moping bout the prelims, yr time is up. There's no more time for regrets nor self-pity, so pick yrself up and get a move on already. Cos if you dont, you're gna fall behind & thats so not going to help. Turn all that negativity about "dying" & "cannot" into, "i must, i will, i can" & get going. If you can have so much negativity, hey. You can have that much drive as well; i mean, if you're so convinced that you cannot, you can be convinced as much that you can. Why choose the side thats gna bring you down? Im quite sure i make sense. Just hold on to the Faith that the future will definitely bring something better. Mightn't be exactly what you want, but definitely better. Definitely. so do what you can & help yourself. But always remember that in this battle, you're not alone. All the way people. Cos when push comes to shove, you taste what you're made of. 9/24/2007 noone but me from URL @ 3:40 PM Nurin wanted me to say this: "Im next to Nurin. How i wish i could hug her" Rupini can attest to this statement. EWWWWWWWWW. YOU ALL SEEEEEE! I do not portray her as a sicko, but she yearns for my love luhhh. & just a few minutes ago she wanted to punch my b**bs. & one day in the train she wanted to pull down my skirt! ZOMGGGGG. EWWWWWWWWW. Okay YAY! Im pretty happy that im using the computer. Oh anyway, i have shifted already. Consequences: 1) Sore throat 2) Cough 3) Slight fever 4) Muscle aches 5) Sprained ankle 6) A NICE COMFY NEW HOUSE! (: ayeeee yeah, the shittiest thing would be that my throat burnssss everytime i cough and my ankle is swollen like super fat-ly. Ouch. &&& I don't have a tv/com/radio or any form of entertainment whatsoever at home,YET, except for my ipod. Which is horrrrrrrible too. But hahaha, no wonder muggers can always find the time to study. Okay. Before this my chem textbook was open infront of me, so i think i shall return to it before the poor book feels lonely. AHAH. Im such a kind soul. Random: 1)I miss people. 2)My friends have some magical powers that always make me happy to be with them. Hello, Delta & 4i! 3)I'd like a nightlife. Geylang night was lovely! Results Tomorrow. I cant wait. No, really. 9/20/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:37 AM I look to the sky to remember you, We didn't have time to even get down to the "sorry"s & "thank you"s, and now its time for Goodbyes. For me, i really owe you an apology, although now wouldn't be a good time. Yesterday would have been better. Just a few days ago i said you were going to explode & give birth in the hall. & I was always the one making people laugh, poking fun at you. Shit, what kind of person am i? But today you were at the back of my mind. You, your daughter, your newborn son, and your husband. Every moment i stopped doing whatever i was doing, my thoughts would jerk back to you. "You all better make good use of me before i leave after your prelims" That came as a slap in the face this morning. It made me tear for awhile realizing just how fragile life is. One moment you're here, everything's fine; the next moment you're not, & people's worlds fall apart. It was your time. God knows what he's doing, your family is in good hands Mrs Ng. I pray for your family and your soul. I pray that you are in a more beautiful place at peace, watching down on us, I pray that things will all work out for your family & that they'd be strong; that you son will grow up knowing what a wonderful person you were. If we feel this bad, i wouldn't even be able to imagine what your family is feeling. :/ I pray that they'll make it through, comewhat comemay. Im quite afraid for tomorrow. I've been through many deaths before, but never one that caught me by surprise. As much as i want to, i dont know if i'll have the strength to look at your face & say Goodbye. and then i bow my head in prayer. 9/17/2007 noone but me from URL @ 10:08 PM I was then still sustained by some kind of hope, but hope so enclosed inaccessible places that i now hesistate to call it hope. A stone had been dropped into an abyss and i listened to its interminable fall. I was that stone, and the hope i clung to was that it would never reach the bottom. -Naema Disparue, origins unknown. - I want to have a looooooong rambling conversation with someone. Lazy laughs and effortless rambles. ireallllywantthisquitebadly): You were everything, everything that i wanted. We were meant to be supposed to be, but we lost it.
noone but me from URL @ 12:27 AM Happy Birthday Irene and Shirely Akka! (: - Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens, bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens, brown paper packages tied up with strings, these are a few of my favorite things. Cream colored ponies and crisp apple strudels, door bells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles. Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings. these are a few of my favorite things. Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes, snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes, silver white winters that melt into springs, these are a few of my favorite things. When the dog bites, when the bee stings, when I'm feeling sad, I simply remember my favorite things, and then I don't feel so bad. - Brandon called to wish my cousin happy bday & say that his sister had grown two big teeeth and had bitten him. He told this to the uh, 5 people he talked to- "Isabel baby bite me you know! She bite me! Ah, very pain!" I asked how, & he said he put his hand in her mouth cos she was crying and so she bit him. Oh, the innocence. The one person that i want to talk to, badly, right now is in aust which seems to be a Gazillion miles away today. I wish you were still my neighbour & i could pop around any hour of the day): - Today was a pretty Lovely day. Brother & Family made my day today. & I cant wait for Tueday. I think im wearing thin. 9/15/2007 noone but me from URL @ 9:56 PM Mojojojo tune: *CURSES. I was lying on my bed getting ready to sleep, listening to "Too close for comfort" by McFly, when i decided to clear my phone. So i deleted a couple of messages & went to a particular folder, only to discover to my horrrrrror, THAT ONE SIGNIFICANT MESSAGE WAS MISSING. ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))): Everything else was still in tact, but that one message! HORRRRRRRORRRRRRS. CURRRRRRRRSESSSSSS. I searched all over (in my phone) for it & couldnt find it! ): It was such a cute message, with so many memories behind it. OMG. It was such a precious message. itevenhadasmiley!): & now its goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. It was one of the three nicest messages amongst all that i had frm the person, and its goneeeeeeeeeeeee. & yeah i know you're thinking im such an ass to be whining over a mere message, when there's starvations and earthquakes and whatnot going on. I know. I feel stupidly materialistic and selfish, but if you knew me well enough & knew who that message was from & when it came, you'd understand. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. HORRRRRRRRORRRRRRRRRS. CURRRRRRRRRSESSSSSSSSSS to the person who deleted it, if it got deleted: that yr finger may kna sprain. But the kind of sprain that reaaaallllly hurts you for awhile to make you regret, then becomes okay again. (oh, but if i find out who you are, i'll Kill you.) HAHAHA. It realllly upset me so that it ruined my sleep. But now im sleepy again, so im turning in. I thought the phase was over, but i keep tearing a lot nowadays.
noone but me from URL @ 1:40 AM I think, I think life is funny. Cos in the most complicated, painful and heartwrenching way, it has a way of working out. Or maybe its just that we adapt to it cos we don't have a choice. Eitherways, the Faith that there'll always be tomorrow carries us through Life dont it? "My wish for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to. You dreams stay big, your worries stay small, you never need to carry more than you can hold." -Rascal Flatts but thy bed doth bideth thee. 9/14/2007 noone but me from URL @ 10:35 PM  Because we're not Human if we don't take a break. Clockwise: Kath, Suria, rupini, Nurin, Myself, Natalie. Photographer: Nish. -I cant belive I'm shifting next Saturday. Dammit. My room is still exactly the way it is, except for the house which is slowly emptying. I will miss it shitloads ): shucks la, all the memories. 7 years is a damn long time. Plus, i dont like change. Constant is comfortable. Grahh. I will miss. -Physics MCQ was tough ):) Emaths was pretty doable. i hope i dont speak too soon.-Mdm Audra says only a handful got A1s (or As) for compre &summary. Mr Goh says 4i's Section A of Paper 2 was okay-ly done as commented by marker Mr Yau. Mr Omer said we betrayed/backstabbed/let him down(i didnt understand the word he used) for tamil. -JC talks on Friday. VJ is compulsory for everyone. -Why don't they have Poly talks? & i didnt receive any poly booklets that everyone else seems to be receiving. - I have ugly Panda eyes. Damn fugly 8[ -Sleeping in school in the sickbay & in the canteen is Damn Shiok. I've slept like never before. & today when i woke up, my hands and legs and the right side of my cheek were numb. I dreamt that i fell asleep during Physics exam, failed & hence Jerked awake. But, sleeping was awwwweeesomeee shiok! (: -I applaud Nurin cos she's trying very hard to keep un-sick. Its difficult for her. Especially since she's nt bisexual, but dontknowwhatsexual. *Nods. We must be supportive of our friends :) HELLO NURIN. I LOVE YOU. Tmr date! (: - OMG. I will miss going home with her &Adlin. )): after four years, it ends now. All those random talks, songs, dinners, stink togethers, and aguchas and dontknowwhat were Love. Now it'll just be the bus ride. sigh ): so farawayyy. I wont be near to anyone anymore. WHO LIVES AT KALLANG? only the kallang river fish i tell you. &mymom'sfiance. & i'll miss my going to school gang too. -http://www.cocoontimes.com/ check this out! Its my mom's Web Portal. Uh, it hasn't been developed yet, but looook! My mom has her own website! :D & its branching out into a business. (started already!) I have a self employed businesswomen jourlist for a Mom. I love (: -Brudder has six pecs. Walauuuuu la. He's only 14. - Today we re-watched 06's ROD video. We were taking over then. Hahaha. Time stole a jet plane i tell you. Stoopid. - I miss intense slacking, fad's house, doing nothing, sitting on the dias, hanging out at our bench & walking aimlessly round school. Now its just library and empty corridors. Sigh. & Oh. If you catch us breaking school rules (eating at 2lec, listening to music in library) its cos we have permission. -I like the intro of the song "Boston". I get high over nice songs now (: -We need magic lamps to learn how to move on. "I wish to move on". "POOF". "your wish is granted". Too many relationships are breaking too many hearts, and there's not enough security guards nor heartglue to go around. But if you need security guard for yr heart come to me k. This security guard is not like the other old ahpeks. She's got style and tactics. HAHA. Im learning how to protect hearts :) For you, you and you. BULLY- for you first. Step 1: WHACK. Subsequent moves are dependent on intial consequences. -Im still a sucker for Cheesy lines. Dammit. Not from the cheese origin anymore though, ahhah. -Airport tomorrow! (: Soon. I'll fly off too. Soon. -You know who you are. I missed you online. Te quiero, usted me adora. Somos Amigos como amigos deben ser, Con un abrazo grandísimo y un lemonkiss de mí austed, acostumbrado usted dice que usted me adora también. Even then, even SuperHeros have the right to bleed. You always want what you cant have; but you, gotta try.
noone but me from URL @ 12:33 AM  I wish the Sea would engulf me; or maybe that i could drown in the Sea. She doesn't know what she's trying to do. Today she threw away 21 marks, just likethat. The worst part being that they were all careless mistakes. 21 marks. Twenty freaking one marks. & 21 marks known only from the paper. When the eqn given is 2i, she equates it to i (6m) She practices like 5000 RV questions then draws the vector diagram wrongly. (5m) Everyone said circular measure was okay, she couldn't do it. (8m) She practices like 10000 integration questions, then forgets to put the C. (1m) Not forgetting the other questions she anyhow whacked, plus all the mistakes that she doesnt know she made. She didn't even compare answers, talk abt all the other marks that would fly away. Now, she's reduced to hoping for a flying marks, pass. To think she did every single paper her teacher gave her, plus took time out to even do the corrections. Thats like -10 freaking papers, plus all the practice she did on her own. You would know if you've talked to her in the wee hours of the morning, she'd have said "maths makes me mad". Tralalalala lalalala. But now, she really doesn't know whats wrong with her. Today she felt incredibly ignorant; and stupid. Ms Chin looked at her face, gave her a pat on the back & said "nvm, do better for yr other papers", & she hadn't even said a word to ms chin. Twenty freaking One marks. Its her, who will pull down her class's msg and disappoint the Awesome amaths teacher. This stupid girl who lost 21 freakinn marks. Its not even about making it to a JC now. Its more of the fact that she needs to know she can do it. That she can & should be getting that 1,that so many get effortlessly. But let her mope awhile more aye. Cos she's not done, so bear with her, friends. She will move on. Cos she knows she wont settle for anything less than her Best; and that was not the best. She sets her mind on sth, she will get it done. I know this of her. I know, better than anyone else. She will get it done. I will make sure of that. I have a point in writing 3rd person. My Mom's making plans to bring brudder & I to Krabbi to learn Scuba Diving. First week of Dec. Thats a plane ride! & The Vast Almighty Ocean! :D Everything that is love, including the family, minus the Dad and the Dog. No one is Stupid, But feeling Stupid is not, nice. 9/13/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:45 AM  Pulau Payar - Oct 2006HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN PATRICIA TAN! :D Hooray, today you finally turn sixteeeen! I dont know if you still read my blog, but ahh, its yr bdayy! (: With you, i honestly think there's nth i've never done. (where do i start!) Friends, Platoonmates; we've eaten, slept, bathed(!) together. I've climbed a freaking mountain and gone on a holiday across the border with you. We went for Camp teen, just the 2 of us. These i've never done with anyone else before. (excpet ophir with nat too) We've done the most random things. Overnight studyovers, Walk around, smelly tofu, piano recitals and ecp outings. & about a Gazillion other things that always put a smile on my face. Not to mention allll the ignore-attitude-donttalk arguments we've had. Haha. Fights strengthen the bond; with you it did. You've been there for me through the times i was going through shit, & you were the one who understood. Thank you my Platoonmate, Friend. One in a million. I remember yr xmas present. I promise you that. With you, i do. 9/10/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:11 PM I NEVER KNEW. I wanted to tell my Mom to enjoy dinner, but i couldn't bring myself to do it. Im really praying i do Well tomorrow. Especially for Physics. If i don't do well for Physics it'd be- 1) Disappointment- in myself. 2) Disappointment- from Mr Goh. 3) Disappointment- that i disappointed Mr Goh. Thats three loads of disappointments, which is one too many, for one. Mr Goh even stayed back till 5+ to ans our questions, teach us, encourage us & chat with us. Plus, he says its an easy paper. So, if i don't do well, its not even about the matter of 'face' anymore. I say, Disappointment is enough to kill. Not a bloody, gory, violent-red death. Its the slow, silent death that hurts the most. You dig? No? Go get a spade. SS went fine. Im trusting Geog will go fine. Not complacence. Its just the confidence; that seems to lack solidarity. Anyway, im really thinking of saying Adieu to first month at JC. Im deciding between working (who'll employ for a mnth!), enjoying or joining a humanitarian trip. Then i shall try taking the train to Dover to see how long it takes to Ngee Ann Poly. But i will not forget my true goal, & that VJ is prospectively 20-30 mins away frm my new house. & Mugging's out; its old school. Cupping's the new In. (NO IT DOES NOT SOUND SICK. GO SEE DOCTOR IF YOU THINK IT DOES) PEACE OUT, A TOWN. "NANA NANA. NANA NANA" -sarah J K L M N O P. Today we almost forgot our ABCs. 9/09/2007 noone but me from URL @ 8:21 PM Lets sing a song! HICKORY DICKORY DOCK. TICK TOCK. THE MOUSE RAN UP THE CLOCK. TICK TOCK. THE CLOCK STRUCK ONE, THERE'S NO MORE TIME, HICKORY DICKORY DOCK. Lets play a game! Its the, "Guess what I'm doing now?" game. If you win, i'll give you a sweet. Clue: MUGGING MY ASS OFF. You got the answer? OH BOY! Im surprised. Nope im not feeling negative. Nov 12 seems so near, yet so far. & that Sucks. A more postitive post later. People are complex. Don't bother. 9/08/2007 noone but me from URL @ 11:21 PM  Time start:2333pm. Warning: Long post STUDY DATE. So, Friday Nurin, Rupini & I went to the Esplanade library to study. We met Vicky there & i almost died cos i thought i lost my phone. It was a rather productive day for me which felt goood (: But after awhile Vicky & i ended up talking and ahahah, it was a good chat la huh. Vicky! "see you there!" Oh, we saw Miss Siew. & so we started calling out "Ms Siew! Ms Siew!" & then we realised that it actually sounded like "Miss you! Miss you!" HAHA. The people next to us started laughing. & thennn, we bumped into Ms Thang, Ms Chin and Miss Wee. Ms thang msged me to ask me what we wre doing outside instd of studying, ha.ha. DINNER DATE. Nurin, Rupini & i went over to Simpang Bedok for dinner. AHA, my Roti John King was simply charmingggg! (: Nurin left for tuition & Rupini & i indulged in Tulang Merah. Violently red, SHIOKKKKK! :D HAHA. STUDYOVER DATE. & then Rupini came over to have our studyover! (: We studied okay! Until around 2+ and i got bored, so i went to look out the window. I noticed flashes of yellow light! so i called Rupini & we wre 'wow'ing for awhile then decided to go out to get a better view. In the middle of the night! HAHA. We saw yellow, blue, green flashes of light! HAHA & Rupini said superman was being born. I'd rather aliens, heh. So after that we took random pictures, like lying in the middle of the road! HAHA. okay fast forward: We went to play in the pooool! (: Initially we just wanted to take pictures, but we couldn't resist. So we jumped in and just walked around for a bit; in the pool. (Lucky we're tall people, hahaha)  POOL DATE.So i said with a its all about you, its all about you baby. My midnight Rendezvous. Got back, changed and continued studying. But at around 430 we knocked out haha. We slept on the floor cos we wre only intending to take a break. BUTTT, we slept till 7 sth like logs mann! Woke up, turned off the study area lights, aircon, computer. & went to BED, for another nap, but only woke up at 11 :x TO DATE: Woke up, ate, studied, breaked, ate, studied, watched Mr&Mrs Smith, said byebye. End of post 1. 9/07/2007 noone but me from URL @ 1:00 AM Over my head- The Fray I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue To turn and run when all I needed was the truth But that's how it's got to be It's coming down to nothing more than apathy I'd rather run the other way than stay and see The smoke and who's still standing when it clears Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Let's rearrange I wish you were a stranger I could disengage Just say that we agree and then never change Soften a bit until we all just get along But that's disregard Find another friend and you discard As you lose the argument in a cable car Hanging above as the canyon comes between Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind And suddenly I become a part of your past I'm becoming the part that don't last I'm losing you and its effortless Without a sound we lose sight of the ground In the throw around Never thought that you wanted to bring it down I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves And everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind Everyone knows She's on your mind Everyone knows I'm in over my head I'm in over my head I'm in over... Everyone knows I'm in Over my head Over my head With eight seconds left in overtime She's on your mind She's on your mind -- Just another song i keep repeating. Certain lines strike me pretty hard. The Fray's Awsome. So's Rascal Flatts. I miss you so bad & yet i wonder if you ever think of me. "Friends Forever" was something i thought we could keep alive between us. I hope not to say its untrue, & yet dare i not say it is. we couldn't make it through 4 years, whos to say another 70 while we're alive? This holidays i think im spending more time with my Music than with my Friends. Now, thats pathetic. Hahaha. Study Over with Rupini tomorrow! :D (My plant has grown 3 leaves now!) Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. I dare to live. 9/06/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:14 AM Reply tags: JAT: I sang in my heart already! (: ahaha. You owe me sth! Nish: Gogo, you're quite the violent kid nowadays. Punch punch. Heart's Security guard will come to the rescue, yo! I love you bully! Vicky: Hello! You are welcome very much! (: hope you enjoyed yr bday surprise! :D Rupini: EW! EWEWEW. DD, your DD. Who cares if he has Anjadi gf. He has your heart. awww. Agagaga: Thank you! :D Nurin: HAHA. I so did not lead you on please. You are bisexual, i've decided. But its okay. Im a open person, just dont go threatening to punch there & touching me everywhere HAHAHA! & i dont know how kath's gg with her invention, but yeah. WHEELCHAIRING k makneknek! (: A1 for Amaths, incorrigible Chem can go eat Vegetables, YO! -- I cant belive im gna post this, but.  This is something no future generation of Cedar NCC's Master Sergeants will have. Nor something that we can pass on. - The fashion sense, yo. Zee's the Ex-Encik's style sehh. "Imagine me&you. And you&me. No matter how we toss the dice, we're meant to be". -Im missing manymany people quite awfully. -Im wasting 2 hours daily travelling to and from tuition. -I will do my work on the train, no matter the fool i might look. -Tuition feels good, although its still all chatters & laughs. -Im greatful for yr accompaniement today. -Macs at airport allows kids to study from 12am-6am. Go figure. -I got chased out of Starbucks even after buying an exxxpensive Oreo Cheesecake ): -My dad left for Indo today. !. haha. -I lay on the sofa for two hours doing nothing. -The plant with my name on it has grown two leaves! (: -I keep playing Rascal Flatt's 'Stand' over and over again. -Im wasting time like as though its worth nothing. -Im meeting abby tmr to do intense physics. -Im glad im meeting someone i've missed. -I wish everyone i loved lived close to me. -I still wish i could fly away. -My online companion is not here ): -I miss ): -BUTTT, (yeah, your ASS! HAHA) Tmr will be a good day. Eh, HELLO MY DEARS! TOMORROW WILL BE AN AWESOME DAY! :D how do i know? Im sarahj, yo. Mother Nature, hahaha (*inside joke: 4i) I miss getting high and laughing for no reason. Hello hello. I miss you. HELLO? I MISS YOU! My wish for you, is that his life becomes all that you want it to.
9/05/2007 noone but me from URL @ 1:12 AM Stand- Rascal Flatts You feel like a candle in a hurricane Just like a picture with a broken frame Alone and helpless, like you've lost your fight But you'll be alright, you'll be alright Cause when push comes to shove You taste what your made of You might bend 'til you break' Cause it's all you can take On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough You get mad, you get strong Wipe you hands, shake it off Then you stand, then you stand Life's like a novel with end ripped out The edge of a canyon with only one way down Take what your given before it's gone And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on Every time you get up and get back in the race One more small piece of you starts to fall into place - Yeah then you stand - yeah Yeah, babyWoo hoo, Woo hoo, Woo hoo Then you stand - yeah, yeah -LOVELY SONG. SOMEDAYSIWANTTO-MYMOMFORTELLINGMETHINGSTHATIDONTWANTTOANDCANNOTSTANDHEARING. - i want to feel like a little kid. a little kid who knows a superhero. i want to fly fly fly away. fly to the land of Escape, where they eat jellybeans and pretty chocolates. where they dont know that the world goes round & why the world goes round. where they dont know what goes on in their lives, & esp why these things happen. little kids you know, painted innocence. Laugh and cry " i dont friend you". where things as simple as that mattered, & no one thought of marriages. Where the home they knew was with their mommy and daddy & the little doggie. & i want to feel like the little kid that will pray for the toothfairy. Maybe not for a penny, but for sth more. Escape. Hold your breath, close your eyes & count to ten. If you open & find yourself in the same place slap yourself, & move on.
noone but me from URL @ 12:13 AM Today doesn't feel like a very good day. That is, Wednesday. Tuesday was fine though. Overslept, came to school & met Nurin. Studied, got hungry, called Suria. Suria came over, with food. Meehoon MeeGoreng eaten the Malay/Indian style. Studied, talked. Bubble-tea-ed, reminisced, badminton-ed, home-ed, laughed. 1) Nurin raped me ): 2) She dared me to eat an onion with a kiss from her as a reward. 3) She bruised me with a pinch. But these are the random days that i love most. My only plan for tomorrow is tuition. & then i have no idea with who/where to study. I think i'll end up rotting at school cos i have no confidence in going to the airport alone anymore. Somedays i wish i had routines cos i feel insecure. Especially with the Os and all the hyped up studying due for it. Okay, im feeling very apathetic now & i dont know why. But i do know that apathy isnt a good feeling. & some insecurities are creeping in even though i keep kicking them out. I think i need a purpose in life. I really want to climb Mt Kinabalu. Damn Asia's monsoon season. & i feel like going for a Long NCC camp. a longlong one where i can just escape. hahaha. but no, lah. I must just go to sleep, wake up, & study. The6pointsbettercome. 9/04/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:18 AM  NURIN AMALIA. poohbear! NO MATTER WHAT, AT THE END OF THE DAY, WE ARE SUPPOSED TO GO WHEELCHAIRING OKAY? OKAY. youpromisedknow.cannotbreakpromisesknow.idontlike. & now you like DD. Sorry Rupini. You can take the R dude. & Takecare of yr stomach la you piggg. haha, iloveyou! (: -- Anyway, more people should be like Grace Chia Pei Fang. She makes relationships easy. Crazy, or whatever. She's my Friend. & As of today she's Nurin's, Rupini's, Suria's & L/Your friend too. -- & this will be a Random post. But it will be difficult, knowing that the humans we all are, we'll think of ourselves as the subject in this entry. Im not going to reassure you that you're not. Just know, the world doesn't revolve around you. Yo. . If i think about ideal friendships, my brain immediately darts to Staff Merdin's batch. 4 years out of school, with nothing in common but the bond, they seem to still be going strong. & its very heartwarming because it reassures me that friends forever is possible. Esp with Delta, where it means the most to me. Not to mention a specific few classmates/schoolmates/ people that i know. But then, its also ineviable, painful yes, that people drift. When you find that you don't have much to talk about, or even when you do there's this screen between you & your friend. . & then it leaves you wondering, what went wrong. Its especially sad when your friend is right by your side, but it just aint the same anymore. Like, if your friend is really still your friend; and not just someone else existing. I hate grappling with stuffs like this. I hate it when it happens to me, or to the people around me. But most of all, damn its Heart Wrenching. But life goes on, doesnt it? Haha yes it has too. . Once significant people become insignificant & yet we remember them. Especially if they've impressed upon us. If you're reading this post, till now, yeap you're one of them (: But laadeedaa, i just wanted to say its heartpain to drift away from friends. . Words once spoken, are left unspoken & friendships once solid, lack substance. Superficial Hellos, Goodbyes. Empty promises of lunches & meet ups. . But ayee, it boils down to each one of us at the end of the day. Our choices. Whether we want to take that extra step with that particular someone; or just leave it as it is. I mean, we can only take if for granted that the Sun will always rise. sunshine! But we can never expect hands that don't clap to make a sound, can we? Not yet i say. . But again, its your say. Its you. You You You. One thing that does revolve around you. Your choices & Your consequences. But do spare a thought for the people around you too. I mean.. Otherwise, its all You. Aha. & here i wna say this. My cousin's boyfriend is an Ex-Gangster. He says he'll break your face if you hurt me. I value my relationships quite a lot. So you don't be no heartbreaker, yo. -- Im hooked onto songs by The Fray. AWESOMEE! -- Today was a Good day. Suria came along to study too. I met Chia Ah Mah! We bought jellybeans & loads of chocolate. Rupini, aka the PIG, ate the Triple whopper. She has a hole in her stomach that leads to her heightsystem, reallly. & At around 9pm Nurin& i met L/You (: It was lovely meeting you again! -- & goodnight now. Its day 2 of the holidays.
9/03/2007 noone but me from URL @ 7:54 AM HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICKY! LOOK AT THE TIME MANN! yeah, i zonked out on the sofa last night :x i had gone to the airport to study alone for err, 5+ hours? hahhaha, i cant believe i can survive without talking for so long. & there were smart people all around me, which left me -GRAHH. anyway, UPDATE! 50 laps at Cedar! I didn't think it'd be fun, but yeah it was! (: There were all the songs blasting in the background which made the atmosphere come alive! & There wasn't really anyone looking dead which = the people i saw all happy & high! (: Plus! There was the spirit there coming from the Lovely Class & the Lovely School! The class ran one round with Mdm Lum ( This woman is damnnnn pro la! She ran 6 rounds for the school despite her knee injuries & plus, she's cute! HAHAHAH) & another with Mr Goh & Mr Chan. ( These 2 are prooooo! They ran 50 freakinnn rounds mann!) After which 6 of us played capts ball against the nballers & kna trashed, HAHA. & then we just went to stand in the foyer & cheer anyone & eveyone on. AFter thaaaat, Nish & i decided to jog Mr Goh's last 8 rounds with him (: So we got behind him and just joggggged away. It was Lovely cos it reminded me of Endurance runs & everyone was cheering one another on. (: Didn't feel quite tired, butttt the body felt the after effects, ahah. (im having bad shoulder,thigh,calf,stomach aches- we didnt stretch) But, MR GOH IS ZEEEEE BEST! HE'S SUPERSONIC FIT MANNN! :D & then was the concert, when our principal made the Best speech ever. It was like there were no words but, "moneymoneymoneymoney" ringing in our ears. Dammmit. She forgot to mention Mr Dean who ran 50 rounds, which is more than her who ran only 1 round damn slowly & in the wrong direction. That left me damn pissed off, but i shall not rant here for fear of getting hauled up by the police for Later Nurin, Nat, Rupini, Cheryl & i trudged our way to ppmacs for Ice-cream but we didnt stay long cos we were all exhausted. Yeap, the 50 laps day was prettty cool! :D Saturday! Went to school for the Physics test which i actually studied for, but couldn't do. In the end it was more of discussive, so.. I dont know, but i think Physics is scary now. The past year Cedar papers are so tough la! & mr goh said, "the paper isnt meant to kill you, but accidents do happen. hahaha" Greeaaaat. Wanted to go for the Army Open house but Dad didnt allow, so we settled for lunch. Nurin Kath Nat & i made our way to Sengkang, indulged in local delicacies. We only intended to walk the food off but we ended up walking for 1.5 hours & then sitting & talking for another 1.5 hours. But, it was a Random day. Kathleen was jealous of my long skirt & i ended up doing mean things, HAHA. Laughed like crazehhhh which made my stomach hurt. Just like the old times.. I like (: cant wait for the freakin Os to end for more of this. Yeap & today im going to go for tuitionnnnn! & then head over to the airport to mug with Nurin & Rupini. & It shall be productive (: & the part cs are coming back from SSC today! Oh & i forgot to mention. ITS THE im going to miss people. 9/01/2007 noone but me from URL @ 12:22 AM 50 laps run was Awesome, except for one part. I shall update about it later. I ran 6km with Nish, came home aching all over, scrubbed myself clean with a Lovely cold shower & slept like a PWINCEXZS from 1645-2230hours! HAHA (: Drank soup, came online, went on my normal routine, defacted, just clicked someone Lovely to talk to online & now im gna STUDY MRPHYSICS FOR MYMRPROPHYSICSTEACHER who ran 5oPROROUNDS! (: okay update later, if i last.
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